Fall is my favorite season.
Maybe it is because I have red hair and people with red hair seem to
gravitate towards all things fall. Maybe
it’s because I love all the beautiful colors (burnt orange, UT fans?). Maybe it’s because I love college football,
pumpkins, crisp apples, apple cider, and walks in the fresh air. Then again, maybe I love it because I can
snuggle up with a throw in front of the fire, a good book and cup of jasmine
tea in hand. Whatever the reason, it is
a gorgeous time of the year in the Northwest.
There are such vivid colors that sometimes you can’t take it all
in. From yellows to oranges to reds—and
most often these colors stand out against a gray sky. It’s as if Mother Nature knew we needed the
bright colors to get us through the rainy season.
Fall is the perfect time for some introspection, at least
for me. I’ve learned that I am very sentimental
and often hang onto things I shouldn’t—that includes material objects as well
as emotions, hurts and resentments. Not
so long ago I went through a very painful time.
It affected me in every way and I felt a great deal of sadness and
guilt. My reasoning mind knows I need to
let go of those feelings—they don’t serve me well. But knowing and doing are two different
things.
One day when I was thinking about that painful time in my
life, I had a vision of me as a tall tree.
And I was shedding leaves, leaves that didn’t serve me well, things that
only hurt me and didn’t help me grow as a person. Shedding those things help me—they make way for new things like the future—just as a
tree shedding its leaves makes way for new life, new leaves.
I realized that I need to be like that tree and let those
leaves of the past go. I need to remind
myself to do that instead of mucking around in the past from time to time. Those days are gone. These days are what matter. What I have now is most precious and I don’t
need to waste a minute of my time left on this earth being sad or feeling
guilty over something I have no control over.
Do you ever find yourself mucking around in the past? Do you have a difficult time letting things
go that you know you should let go?
Those feelings sometimes rise up and catch us when we least expect
them. Do you need to shed those leaves
of hurt, failure, disappointment? How do
you do it?
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